The Present
Wednesday, September 15, 2010, 5:05 PM
Well.
Its 17:06 hrs on my watch. I'm like so bored rite now. Got my off but can't go anywhere. Mum says "Budak kene buasir takle merayap!!".Gosh.im only going out for awhile-____-. I was planning to go out with her. But unfortunately.im too scared to make more promises. False hopes are too far out to be demolished by my long absence. I'mbeing downed to more pressured priorities that i'm persevering to endure. My problems??Hard to explain-__- Let's just sae i got three more months to my ORD. Hopefully by that time..Everything gets better & i'll start a new beginning next year.

I missed out a lot.
Especially her. Kept being undeniable cause I'm scared I'll be more drawn to you like a paranoia.-__-. I can't deny this feelings has grown immensely, but i convinced myself not to be too conditional. But i won't give up.until she herself push me away. Gosh.i sound like a lunatic.hha.
Her birthday is coming. Been looking around for all the pink stuff i could find.only got two. Bit there's more. Hope she'll love it..
Finally budak gila tu dah tua.Aku kalau dah ckp kau akan tua ..msti kau tua nyer..wahahahaa..
k..lame.i know..hha

I just need to top up my pp8 so i can msg that gal who can't speak properly-___-lol.
I think she's watching the new kajol movie, "we are family"..well..whatever-___-.hha.

Alrite.till here..dah kene pekik gy solat.
Tak sabar nak buat die nanges on her special day..(tears of endearing joy)hhaa.
k.till here.


Whatever happens to us
I'll still be here
Cause whatever happens
Happens now
The present is us


HSS

My Now
Monday, September 6, 2010, 10:51 PM
Really long time huh...

so much has happened..
Some expected & some just vastly intimidating..
Details i won't splat on this blog.I just let u guys wonder..haha
Life's fine i guess.
Afraid to use "great"..cause it has such deeper meaning.

For now my family is my biggest priority.
Especially my sis..
"I just want u to get well.
I'll do anything to protect you.
Coz when i say i love you.i really do"
Insya'allah..u'll get better day by day..
We'll always pray for you.

Even at my downs..there's always someone who's there..
Even if she don't show that she care..but i know she does.
I'm so grateful for that.
She made me realise that this world ain't always a fantasy.
u need to face reality.
And unfortunately this guy is drawn to you & head over heels for you.
This feeling is unpredictable .
but its true
I have to know what you're doing
Every updates about you.
Coz you mean so much to me now.
I know ur not ready..
If there's no affliation between us ..i surrender..
But i'll try my best to prove that im the one.
Even in my "gemok" state rite now.-____-...

What i wanna sae now is..


For now..
U really hurl up my world
You made me mad
You made me sad
Coz ur so terrible
Despite that i can't walk on a day w/o hearing you
Its not paranoia
Its not fake
Its just you
You that made me a better me
Coz u made me face reality
And the reality is
My feelings are true
For you


Harniz Sufiyan Shah b. Syu'alman.



Let things be, If its meant to be
HSS

Moving
Saturday, June 5, 2010, 6:27 AM





I guess life has all kinds of explicts & ways to determine where u stand & where you hold that perfect moment to remember it forever.

Its like when you met someone,
Someone Special,
Someone that moves you even when you're still & stationery.
Someone that's obviously the opposite sex of yours,(not trying to discriminate the homo's..lol)
Someone that made you believe in ways u never thought u did to urself
Someone that changes your life within that very moment that you met him/her
In simple terms:
Someone that you''l try your very best to forget when he/she's gone

You can call it fate/destiny..

In many ways we search or waited for our true love to come, but it yet to prevail.

The truth unveils is beyond nothing you can imagine.
Its simple
You'll know its her, when you'll meet..
The funny thing is, you don't know its her
Thats why life is so complicated(to immature human beings)
Its simple




When you know you gotta go, you go
I can't deny im missing her like crazy
Im holding on
July is the month that i'm not prepared to go through
It maybe the lasts,
or;
It may be the beginning


Just hope it'll went smoothly even though
Im still prepared for the worst
If i make it through,
I'll start a new beginning



My parents still pester me to go queensland
I'm at a bottomline
I'll miss so many people
This has to be the hardest decision
Coz when i go,
Its impossible for me to come back
To those who already knew i'll make the best moments now with you guys before i go.
I know this post seem abit too un-conditional yet very damn emo.lol
But times like this
I juz have to let it all out
&
the best thing is its almost 7am now on a saturday


I had best moments with the most beautiful people
Beautiful memories that'll not easily fade
One of them brought a huge impact in my life
I'll have to withstand my pursues to nothing i've yet to gain
I've tried my best,

But i know it won't happen
Maybe its fate
& maybe, just maybe..
Its a whole new beginning
So i'll just pray that i'll get thriugh july & made it through safely.
Alright.till next time

"Its hard to forget you, but i will
For us. i will
Take care.Goodbye
& Thank you for everything you've done for me"


"Always put on a smile no matter where you stood"

HSS

P.S:The truth is my all time favourite colour was Yellow

Sunday, May 23, 2010, 1:46 AM
I swear i feel like shit now.
Im super moody today.

Eveything unexpexted happened today.
Others got involved & became my victim.
I hate being like this.

& now im officially the bad guy.
i feel like running away & leave singapore for good.

PS:i don't want us to drift apart

Tuesday, April 20, 2010, 9:44 PM
i'm at my cuzin's place now.
&
i can't think straight

Everyday is killing me.
& every second seems longer than before

i\I'm opening up my heart & the past is a new beginning to enter

i hope ur doin fine.
coz i know u can live w/o me.
& i'm competing against a new scale.

Its what i have for now
&
all i have left

Always treasure life
The days are numbered & i know this is for the best
I'll survive till the very last
Coz i know its worth knowing u even for that little while



P.S:Everthing seems so fast, but i'll erase it

Sunday, April 18, 2010, 9:42 PM
I've been holding out
i've been at worst
&
probably the worst are not yet over

Today will b the day i've broken up with my girl.
i miz her so much
i can't believe, i'm actually doing it
I know its for the best

She told me she don wanna do this .she dun wanna break up
but i have to
i want he best of u
we're not going to b happy
Chances are condemmed & oppurtunities are being withdrawn

I am a simple guy
i just want to b loved & love someone.
i'll do anything for that someone.

my words are enough & i rest my conscience clear

im doing this for you



P.S:Hold on to my words & yours

Tuesday, April 6, 2010, 1:43 PM
I MISS NURUL SYUKRIYAH BINTE SHUKOR OH, VERY THE MUCH.